Breaking Dawn...New Zealand?!

Yes, so as I already said, I know that everyone's probably too busy reading Breaking Dawn to read the flimsy little update for On the Mend and I totally don't blame you. I just had to get this out because updates aren't going to happen for a week and a half. I'm going to be in New Zealand, so I wanted to give this to you guys first before I left.

And speaking of Breaking Dawn, my mom went and bought it while she was at work last night and she didn't bring it home! She left it at work. WHY? Because she said that I'd spend all day reading instead of packing! WHAT?

...well, that might be true, but SO? I've been waiting an entire year for this book! I NEED MY BREAKING DAWN!

Gah.

Anywaaaaays...onto the chapter update...

As most of you already guessed, Edward decided to tell Bella his secret. And there are specific reasons behind this. One, he wanted to show Bella that he knows how to keep his mouth closed. Two, he thought she deserved to know, since she shared one of her secrets with him. And finally, he wants to have an open relationship with her. He knows that Bella's not telling him the entire truth--I mean, come on. He's not an idiot. He knows that there's more to the story that she's not telling him, but he thinks that if he sets the example by opening up, by laying everything down on the table, she'll eventually feel comfortable enough to do the same. He's trying to lay a foundation for their relationship.

And I guess right now you guys are most freaked out about Edward finally admitting how he feels about her. To tell you the truth, I didn't want this to happen when I was writing the chapter. I wanted to hold the romance out for much longer. I wanted his confession of love to be this huge production, and most of all, I wanted Bella to be ready. I wanted her to know and see it coming. But no...Edward wanted her to know now. Trust me, you guys, I really wanted to draw it out. I kept saying, "No, Edward! It's too soon!"

But as you guys have already figured out, he has a mind of his own. And he wanted to say it now.

You're a little worried about Bella's reaction, I assume. Well yeah, I would be too. But to ease your fears, I'm leaving you a sneak peek for the next chapter.

“But didn’t that make you feel…incomplete?”

I sighed. “All the time. But what was I going to do? Force someone to think like me just so I would get along with them? That’s not fair to them.”

Suddenly, he took my hands in his. “But it’s not fair to you, either. I never realized how lonely you were until now. You’ve been alone your whole life, haven’t you?”

The blood rushed to my cheeks and I abruptly looked away. “What about you?” I asked. “Haven’t you been alone? It’s always been Carlisle and Esme, Rosalie and Emmett, Alice and Jasper. Didn’t you ever feel left out?”

He shrugged. “I’ll admit, there were moments when I would have liked to have had a partner, but I eventually resigned myself to the impossibility.” The longing in his voice was very faint, but I could still hear it. “After decades, I had learned to be content with just my family for company.” Then he turned his warm eyes to me and I felt my insides slowly melt. “But I doubt you’ve had as much practice as I have.”

“Perhaps,” I murmured. “But I’ve gotten used to it too.”

He reached for my hands and held them in his. “You shouldn’t have to settle for it. You deserve more than that.”

His words cut through me. They were the words that I so longed to hear, the ones that I needed to hear more than ever. But for some reason, they hurt. They made the hole inside of my chest ache and throb as tears sprang to my eyes.

Hopefully your fears have been relieved! And here's to hoping that Breaking Dawn finally brings about the inevitable.

If you haven't already reviewed, please go back and do so! Please? Pleeeaaaase? *pout*

Ciao.