So...

[SGPHS discussion]
Ahh, yes. The long awaited MerDer action.

To be honest, I've been dying to get to this chapter. Seriously, dying. I was so ready to post this chapter the minute I finished writing it. But you guys were still on chapter three or something like that, so it really wouldn't have made much sense. So now that you're here...

OH MY GOD DEREK KISSED MEREDITH!

But he wasn't supposed to. And Meredith wasn't supposed to kiss him back. *gasp* Oh snap. So there are all sorts of crazy, mixed feelings being felt on both sides. Of course, Mer already knows that she loves Derek, but Derek's not sure yet. How do you throw away two years of the first meaningful relationship you've ever had? The thing is, you don't. But Meredith saved his life. At this point, he's asking himself, would Addison have done the same thing? Would she have had the strength or the emotional fortitude to pull him out of a smashed car? Would she be able to stomach several surgeons cutting into him, watching in the gallery and reporting back to his family and friends of his hourly progress? The way I wrote Addison, I don't really see that happening. At least, not now. Maybe after several years of medical school education, but not now.

And Mark? Already knowing how she's in love with his best friend? Yeah, it's because Mark's so badass. I really, really love Mark in this chapter. Even if he's so absolutely beyond out-of-character, it's so nice to see that he has more emotional depth than he's usually credited for.

I also wanted to talk about Izzie. It's been a while since Mer's talked to her because Cristina has sortakinda taken her place. But Izzie has some wisdom and they're still good friends. So as Mer's first good girl friend, it's her duty to impart some of that wisdom to her.

[This Heart discussion]
A lot was going on in this chapter. First of all, Mer found out that a BMT would be her best shot at survival. That's gotta be rough, you know? Realizing that drastic measures are the only way she'll survive. It's gotta suck. But you guys are a very smart group of readers, so I'm sure you'll be able to guess where I'm going with that.

Another thing...Addie and Derek are getting a divorce! It's about time Addie let go. Seriously. It's like that old saying goes: if you love it, let it go. There's a second part to that phrase, but it doesn't apply to this situation. So we'll leave it out. And as a sidenote, I absolutely love Cristina in this chapter. Because she flipping rules. Her being all protective and helpful is just her way of dealing with Meredith's illness. Because if her person bottoms out, she won't have much left.

And of course...Meredith passed out. I know what you guys are thinking--MEREDITH PASSED OUT IN THE MIDDLE OF A SURGERY! THAT MEANS DEREK WILL FIND OUT, RIGHT? RIGHT?? *shrugs* Maybe? Who knows? Dr. Shepherd, though very dreamy, isn't always the brightest crayon in the box, if you know what I'm saying. So go ahead and speculate all you want because it might happen and it might not. You'll just have to read and review.

[ending notes]
As I'm sure you already read in my A/N at the end of the chapters, I'm going to be in Breckenridge for a band trip for the next five days, so I won't be able to update for a while, but the moment I get home, I will definitely be working my butt off on Chapter Five.

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